5 weeks till xmas?!?!

while i was sleeping in today..basking in the sun streaming thru my window..i heard on the radio that it was another 5 weeks till xmas..

whoa..only 5 weeks till xmas?!?! and heck i have no xmas plans..u see, for the first time in forever, im not gonna be ard family for xmas..which is kinda sad really..ive always had either my family or my parents or my sister ard for xmas, whether it be in chch, in sg or even on holiday..so this time the rest of my family r in sg while im here in chch..mainly becos of stupid TI year which has to start in nov..i guess i have to start getting used to it since im gonna be working pretty soon..may even have to work on xmas! so usually during xmas, id ask my mum wat r we having for xmas dinner? but this time i cant ask her dat..instead i ask myself wat's for xmas dinner? hmm..maybe i shuld start planning..xmas dinner for one..

which brings me to another topic..dining out alone..ive had to endure this experience quite a number of times and each time id rather have a brown paper bag over my head..i always look at solo diners and wonder..why r they eating alone? i recall dat this topic has even been mentioned in sex and the city..and eating alone takes preparation..u need to have ur weapons when u're eating alone..be it a book or some other way to entertain urself since there is no one to talk to..sometimes i choose to eat alone becos i believe it builds character..haha..im strange i kno..being able to eat alone takes some form of guts..the ability to not care abt wat other ppl think and to simply enjoy the dining experience is something dat ive yet to master tho..and since im alone for the next 3 months, i shall push myself and build character..at least it will teach me dat i dnt need to depend on someone else in order to enjoy my life..