change of career?

sometimes i wonder whether i went onto the rite career path. i remember being stuck in high school, not knowing wat to study in university and one of my teachers said i haf the luxury of choosing wat i want to do becos i can prob get into watever course i want to do. and so i chose the most difficult course to get into. thinking i understood wat it meant and the sacrifices it would take. and now dat im in the line of medicine, the sacrifices i make still never fails to astound me. do i enjoy my work? i dunno. i guess the only time i do enjoy my work is when i see my patients so grateful. i had a patient thanking me the other day for my work and care and in my mind, i thot, i didnt really do very much. technically, all i did was assist in her surgery and put out blood forms so dat she would get pricked and make sure she pooped by charting regular laxatives. but still, she was ever so grateful and dat made me smile. is dat job satisfaction?

there are many days when i wish i had the guts to just take a step off my career path and head towards a completely different direction. and wat would i do? i dunno. i dunno wat my passion is i spose. but ive always loved food and dance and the entertainment industry.

careers to consider:

food critic: now i would love to be this but i would obviously require a flair of writing and i would prob need to enter journalism school to do this. and well, my love for writing does not extend dat far unfortunately. but i do love food...

pattisier: i love desserts but im not a fan of waking up early each morning to start baking and preparing cakes and pastries. sadness. and to do this, i would have to go to cooking school. hmm..could be an option.

backup dancer: way too competitive as it is and considering my age and my lack of technical training, impossible.

film editor: would require studying film and film history, could potentially be interesting. but i wouldnt have a clue where to start.

actress: many obstacles here. not pretty enuf and not talented enuf. altho i think im pretty good at crying on the spot. and besides, i dont think i could handle criticism from the anti-fans. 

air stewardess: the travels would excite me but this is a career that kinda leads to nowhere. and as my dad always says, it's a glorified waitress. sigh. but this was once my dream job.

scrub nurse: now i think dat i would be an excellent scrub nurse. meticulous and tidy. and i reckon im good at assisting. but this would require me training to be a nurse in the first place and wiping old ppl's bottoms is not favourable at all.

dentist: there are many times when i have regretted my choice of doing medicine. dentistry is a wonderful job for ladies who want to work 9-5 on weekdays and want to look pretty all day. i would have been able to dress up and wear heels becos they sit on stools most of the time. and seriously i dont understand why docs say they wouldnt want to look into ppl's mouths all day. i reckon docs are worse off, we have to look into mouths without the option of wearing a mask and look into other orifices dat smell and look worse. and i dont think anybody ever died from seeing a dentist. but becoming a dentist would require me to study for another 4 yrs and live in dunedin, which i do not want to do.

maybe i havent discovered my passion for medicine. i havent found a specialty which i love to bits. maybe dats why i keep thinking abt quitting and changing jobs. sigh.