having the XX chromosome.

i like being female. im so glad i was born female and not male. i would never have a sex change. i like how as females, we get to dress up. and at the end of the day, i reckon women are more intelligent than men. dats wat i think anyways.

but then sometimes i think it's difficult being a woman. we are expected to be able to do it all. the career, the family, the self-maintenance. it's all a bit of a challenge.

we haf to look good as well while being a superwoman. we gotta have great hair, great body, be ladylike, the list can go on..i guess dats y some women end up being obsessive abt how they look.

i was thinking abt all of this cos ive been feeling the pressure to maintain my appearance esp living in big cities such as nyc or sg, more so in sg. but then again things like having a manicure or a haircut is much cheaper in sg than back in nz so therefore i indulge in these luxury treatments.

in my first wk back, i already had a haircut and a manicure and a pedicure.. and then don't forget abt hair removal. i hate hair removal..gotta epilate the legs, tweeze the brows..there are places specialising in hair removal but im too scared to go..haha..so i do-it-myself (i.e. DIY but in this case DIM)

then i had a facial recently and dat was a big learning experience. i learned dat im getting old. YES. OLD. it's time i start getting facials on a regular basis. i also found out i have freckles! well the beginnings of it anyways. have to start doing something abt it otherwise ill have freckles like lucy liu..eww..and i was then recommended by the beauty therapist to have facials regularly and dat i shuld have started when i was 21..and i thot getting a facial at my age was young..and i also have eyebags (not a surprise really considering my frequent lack of sleep) and lots of blackheads which was then painfully extracted..the pain woman go thru to try and beautify themselves..

speaking of pain, how could i forget the pain of childbirth! but then dats another stage of life dat i hope will not happen in at least the next 5 years..hahaha..or it may never even happen at all..hmm..

it's so hard being a girl. but then again even after the pain and trouble i go thru, i still love being a girl and i'm a total feminist..i'm happy being independent and providing for things dat i want by myself..ive been brought up to never depend on a man..

singaporean girls are kinda well known to be materialistic..in fact one of my guy frens who recently moved to sg already knos abt the famous 5Cs, the 5Cs dat sg women look for in a man..Cash, Condo, Car, Credit card and the Career..and yea to a certain extent i do agree dat sg women are somewat more materialistic..def more brand conscious..but then like i said, i would rather earn the 5Cs on my own than rely on a man to provide me with them..and guess wat? i'm more than halfway there already..

during my recent trip to nyc, i went to one of my fav stores on 5th ave..Tiffany's..sigh..but unfortunately im not rich enuf to afford any jewellery..i dunno y but i love looking at diamond rings at jewellery stores..and so i told my fren dat i would buy myself a diamond ring when i get my first paycheck..and then she looked at me weird and said something along the lines of getting a guy to buy u one instead..but i think by the time i wait for a Tiffany's diamond ring from a guy, i mite as well wait for my funeral..so mite as well buy one for myself instead..haha..

so does this make me an independent woman? shuld i start singing to destiny's child? haha..so instead of waiting for dat little blue box, i shall go buy it myself.

edit: for the nostalgic part of me, i youtubed destiny's child and was totally grooving with the music..and hey! they buy their own diamond rings too! watch it here!