when i became unwell with my recent illness, i was feeling very down. the main reason was the impact it had on my normal life. i had to stop work, i couldn't eat properly, and i felt so disfigured in appearance. i wanted so much to hide in a dark corner and just disappear.
i think most ppl sympathised with me and a fren messaged me after visiting me with this verse.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
since then, dat verse has kinda stuck with me. It aids as a reminder for me to not think abt my superficial appearances and instead focus on who I am as a person. He made me and i shuld be accepting of everything dat i am, rather than despair or complain abt my personality, character, looks, etc.
recently i started reading this book called Secrets of an Irresistible Woman. it sounds a bit like one of those self help books u find in a bookstore, teaching u how to be irresistible and lure a man rite? but it's actually quite a surprising read becos it's abt being a woman who lives her life in a Godly manner. and the author quotes bible verses to back up her theories.
the first chapter is titled "take art appreciation". it talks abt being able to appreciate yourself for who you are becos u are a piece of art who is to be admired and appreciated. it then quotes...
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvellous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well! Psalms 139:14
i think i definitely need to learn art appreciation.
im very much a perfectionist, often critical and i would say im my own worst critic. im the type of person who can list a million things im not happy with myself abt. i guess it gives off a negative vibe as well. and sometimes i use the negative thoughts to justify why im in my current situation, to justify why im not happy with life.
it's interesting how this particular verse has come up twice throughout this period when ive been unhappy with my appearance. it's like God is speaking to me, telling me i shouldnt be so hung up over physical appearances. sometimes i think i got this illness becos God is trying to teach me to focus more on being a better person, not a prettier person. rite before i got sick, everything in my life was going well. i was finishing TI year and abt to start work. even my skin was the best it had ever been in years. and so i think this was a lesson for me, to not be caught up in physical attraction and instead to see myself for who i am and to improve myself as a person, inside more than the outside.
my philosophy in life is dat everything happens for a reason. bad things dat happen are obstacles to be overcome, to teach us and allow us to become a better person. God doesn't let bad things happen for no reason. it's His way of teaching us and to move us back onto the rite path. God has my life all planned out already and if part of His plan involves me becoming unwell, dats ok. becos i believe having this illness has indeed changed my thinking abt a whole lot of things, for the better.
2 comments:
you are definitely fearfully and wonderfully made yin! God loves you no matter how you look, and that's most important! =)
praise God for what He has done in you. You are a beautiful person inside and out :)
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