physical likes and dislikes

ive been watching a lot of bimbotic stuff. to be specific, been watching clicknetwork's guide to life featuring blogger xiaxue. ended up reading her blog. and i find it amazing dat she and her frens can find time to make themselves up and groom themselves. including lash extensions, hair extensions, nail extensions, everything becomes extended. which then made me think abt how i groom myself..

i used to not really care abt makeup. i thot makeup was more for special occasions, not for daily usage. but even when i put on makeup, i tend to be more conservative and restrict myself to concealer, powder, blusher, eyeliner, a bit of shadow and lip balm with a touch of colour. dat was it. and dat would be my makeup for special occasions. yes i kno some ppl use dat for regular days.

i still remember a few years ago when i was going out with my sister and some of her frens to a party or clubbing..cant remember the details. but one of her frens called to say her toilet had been locked and she couldnt access her makeup supply and would not go out unless she had makeup on. at the time, i thot dat was ridiculous, to not go out without makeup. but my sister said she wouldnt go out anywhere without makeup. a few years down the track, i now understand why.

my skin isnt the greatest. i dont have naturally flawless skin. i have traces of acne scars and uneven skin tone. i was willing to go out without makeup when i was younger probably becos i didnt really care as much and also my skin prob had less scars. now, i do care abt my appearance and there are more scars and ive realised makeup can make u look better! so now on a daily basis, i lay on the concealer, powder and blusher at least. on days when i have more time, i can be bothered with a bit of eye liner and maybe some colour to the lips. and then on special occasions, i do the works. except i still havent tried false lashes.

so why do girls put on makeup? why do they care abt how they appear in public? the sole purpose i spose is to look good. but to look good in front of who? in front of their peers so they can feel better abt themselves? or in front of the opposite sex as a means of attraction? prob a bit of both..

but i think every girl out there no matter how they look, with or without make up has insecurities abt their physical appearance. hence they try their hardest to hide their flaws and accentuate their strong points. some even resort to plastic surgery. with regards to plastic surgery, i sit on the fence. i think plastic surgery is needed in some circumstances. but for purely cosmetic reasons, im not too sure.. korea is plastic surgery country. and everytime i see korean actresses, i wonder wat they have had done. whether it's their double eyelids, or their noses, or maybe a boob job.. personally, i would like to say dat i wont ever go for plastic surgery becos i kno wat happens in surgery and it aint pretty. haha. and also, my thinking is why ruin wat God gave u? but i dunno, my opinion may change when i get old and wrinkly. haha.

and yes overall, im pretty satisfied with my appearance but there will always be things i wished for. yea there are definitely things abt my physical appearance dat i like, but i think some things can be improved upon. i kno it's horrible to say bad things abt urself or to even criticise based on physical appearance but i am only human rite? so here's my list of wat i like and dont like abt my physical self.

• i like my hair, it's pretty silky and shines in the sun. haha. the base colour is black and im thinking of dye-ing it soon. but not sure wat colour. but it still shines a dark brown in the sun. BUT wat i don't like abt it is how thin it is. and i have bad hair days where it becomes oily and flat. my hair lacks volume. but still silky.
  
• i dont like my skin becos it has acne scars. altho i have to say my skin has improved a lot since my teenage years. but i still get occasional pimples dat pop up now and again. and it used to be only the t-zone but has now spread to my cheeks. sigh. must drink more water. but i think makeup has helped conceal it a lot. and i use makeup dat treat pimples at the same time as concealing. so no the makeup doesnt cause more pimples.
• my eyes are actually uneven. one eye is bigger than the other. and they are small in general. im asian afterall. but i used to have single eyelids until i started using contact lenses. now my eyelids are double. strange but true. the power of contact lenses. one of the best buys and decisions in my lifetime. eyeliner makes a whole heap of difference when it comes to small eyes. my lashes are short too. but eyelash curler does wonders.
• i actually have no complaints abt my nose. surprisingly. i quite like my nose shape. altho the skin overlying it is often bombarded with pimples. pimple cream to the rescue.
• i half like and half dislike my lips. like becos it's quite pouty. a fren once told me it's like angelina jolie lips which made me laugh. dislike becos the bottom lip is too thick, my mum says it's from falling down when i was young. apparently i cut my bottom lip, there's even a scar underneath.
• i dont like my teeth. i have a slight overbite meaning they jutt out too much. i wanted braces but the orthodontist told me i didnt need it. in fact, she started saying how models with big teeth were in. (yea rite.) i went to see another orthodontist recently abt it. she said i would need to pull out 4 molar teeth in order to fix it. hmm no thanks. haha. i guess at least my teeth are straight? and the other thing is they are stained. and i would need veneers to fix dat. erm. no thks.
  
• my ears like my eyes are uneven. at least my hair manages to cover them up. but my earlobes are just fine.
• i like my long neck! and my small face. but i wish i had a slightly higher forehead. my forehead is slightly short, which means i can never have short fringe and look good at the same time.
• my height is pretty average. more towards the short side. ive always thot i was 1.62cm but i measured my height in clinic the other day and i was 1.64cm and i wasnt wearing heels! so there. im officially 1.64cm. not tall enuf to be a model tho. :(
• i love my hands. ive always thot they are worthy enuf to be hand models. haha. ive received numerous comments saying my fingers are long. too bad i suck at playing piano. i would love to keep my nails long too but too bad im gonna be a doc. gotta keep the nails short in order to percuss properly. sigh.
• figure-wise, yea i guess it's good dat im slim? but really i wish i was more curvaceous...instead of being flat everywhere. the hourglass shape is more ideal. i dunno why every other woman out there wants to be slim like me. i personally wanna put on weight. guess the grass is always greener on the other side.
  
• yea i have skinny legs but wish they were longer then i would be taller. haha. but yea my legs dont suck. my sis wants my legs. haha. i like the shape anyways.
  
• i have skinny feet. it means i cant wear some types of shoes like birkenstocks. but it's not a big deal. i get over it.

am i self critical? yes i think i am. oh well. i shuld be thankful i look normal. with 2 eyes, a nose and a mouth. with no limbs missing. and 2 ears..even if they happen to be uneven. hehe.